Reflections on my 2nd week

I have only been off from teaching for two weeks yet in some ways it feels much longer. I have experienced a gamut of feelings about myself including incredible euphoria for my new found freedom and feelings of intense self doubt wondering if any one will ever again take my yoga classes once I return.

Thankfully, not all of my mind space has been occupied with the teachings of yoga as I planned last week for mine and Matthew’s renewal of our wedding vows that took place 16 years ago. Actually, we wrote new vows as we realized that the vows we originally spoke to each other were never a personal reflection of what we felt for each other. To be fair to the original vows, at 21 and 22 years of age, I don’t think we really knew what we felt for each other or who we were to become together.

This is what I learned last week:

I am so fortunate to have been able to take time out of my life to reflect on my relationship with Matthew and what is really precious.

I am so fortunate to have been able to share my love for the most important people in my life with friends and family at our community and feel safe and supported.

I am so fortunate to have a partner who I respect and love without hesitation.

Once again, I learn the value of kind words and genuine hugs.

Once again, I learn the value of letting myself feel all the wide array of human feelings including unconditional love and vulnerability.

As fall approaches but is still far enough away, August is a month to connect with the beauty of summer, the beaches, the warm delicious air, the cooler evenings, the taste of peaches. Discover dragonflies, paint a picture. Let your spirit soar. Let yourself feel love. Tell someone you love how much they mean to you. Be open. Be sensitive. To be sensitive is to be alive.