I am restless today. Was unable to do my yoga first thing this morning. This means that I will have to cut and paste my yoga practice into my afternoon. This will take some doing since I have a dentist appointment, hair appointment, business meeting and am responsible for carpooling kids to pottery class. I am also teaching Power at 6pm. I am also the cook and housekeeper today.

I was unable to practice my yoga this morning as Matthew went into work sometime in the middle of the night and Sadie has been up since 5:30am. Cutting a new tooth. Based on the amount of mucus and her bouts of crying, cutting a tooth must be painful. I let her nurse freely last night. Probably she nursed four to five times. I stopped counting and at some point surrendered over my sleep and my body so that she could have some good "mommy medicine."

When I have to alter my most basic needs such as sleep and yoga for my children, I like to think that the most secure and fearless children are the ones who were allowed to develop their inner core of strength over time. They're not the ones who had their bottles or blankets snatched from them prematurely in a misguided attempt to "toughen them up."

I like to believe that the time I invest into Sadie right now is building her mental and emotional resilience in the world. I like to believe that she is absorbing a sense of safety and seecurity at a cellular level from our middle of the night bonding. I like to believe that I am honoring my intuitive mother's wisdom and am doing what is right.

Having children, a healthy marriage, running a business, and operating as a well adjusted women who is capable of identifying and meeting her own needs is a process. When I doubt myself or sometimes wish I was in a different stage of my life, I rely on the words of Hafiz. "This place where you are right now, God circled on a map for you."